Hotness!!!

Author: Angela  //  Category: Epic

The Meet & Greet was crazy. There was lots of screaming. I waited a very long time just to be able to meet the whole cast… but I did and wow… they are all really hotter in person and very nice.

The girl in the top middle said I was cute. The guy on the right of her loved my shirt… Edward Scissorhands and the rest… all asked my name said hi etc.

It just was an overall nice experience and might see on my off time.. try to find out where exactly they film in this area in hopes of being able to talk to them more and possible… I dunno… show them more of this area. :D

Fan Girl Fever :squees:

Author: Angela  //  Category: So Sayeth Angela

One of my fave shows these days is Vampire Diaries. They film it in my area… Covington GA. Well guess what I found out yesterday…?

THEY ARE HAVING A MEET & GREET THEN A Q&A WITH THE CAST OF VAMPIRE DIARIES THIS SATURDAY IN KENNESAW GA ALSO IN MY AREA!!!

squeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee!!!

It shall be my 1st ever “vampire” hugs and I’m super excited about it. I’ve never actually had the chance to hug an actor or actress. & ok dude, the 2 main guys, Stefan and Damon, are SUPER SUPER SUPER freaking hot. Ok, I’m about to have girly happy spasms just thinking about meeting these 2 guys. I have to control myself not to jump on them both. Hehe, even not to rape the both of them. Yes, I know I’m 30 and shouldn’t be acting like this but I don’t care. Hehe… as I have grown older, I have decided to truly embrace EVERYTHING that I enjoy & fuck all who think I’m childish. I’m having fun and thats all that freaking matters.

& if I am able to get a pic with those 2 HOTTIES, rest assured I will be posting them up ;)

G’Burg Trip

Author: Angela  //  Category: So Sayeth Angela

I’m finally getting around to uploading my pics from when I went to Gatlinburg, TN with friends over New Years Weekend…

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More…

Uhhhh

Author: Angela  //  Category: So Sayeth Angela

I want to so badly right now to post up my pics from my New Years weekend trip to Gatlinburg, TN but ehhhh…. I’m in a lazy state of mind at the moment. I guess… gimme another week ;)

Last Post of 2009

Author: Angela  //  Category: So Sayeth Angela

I’m going to go against the usual blog entry like everyone else is doing for their last one of 2009. I’m actually going to give y’all more of an insight of who actually Angela is. I originally wrote this in depth article for an online magazine that I was staffed with in 2004. I guess in a way, I’m trying to be more courageous and share more things about myself.

[begin article]

As a woman who has undergone a few personal struggles, I would like to share mine with you. Many people are so quick to judge a woman when she decides to have an abortion or once word gets out that she did have one. Each and every woman has her own reason(s) to have this procedure done. However, many think that the woman was just irresponsible and used it as another form of birth control. This misconception is rarely the case. There are other explanations as to why a woman chose to terminate her pregnancy. Has the thought ever occurred to you that she might not have been healthy enough? Why sacrifice your own life life to bring one individual into this world when you can end that particular pregnancy and once your health improves, “mother” quite a bit more later on in life? I can hear it now…. but that is a SELFISH decision… you should have risked your very own life to let that possible child live. Ok, fuck that. What if both mother AND child had died right at childbirth?

There are other questions that one must ask oneself when faced with an unwanted pregnancy. Are you financially capable to support this child? You are going to have those doctor bills during the 9 months when that child is growing inside of you, cost of the room you will be staying in during and after the delivery of said child, cost to adequately feed, clothe, etc of child. Do you REALLY want to raise it with welfare money? Wouldn’t you feel more accomplished if you were able to support this child with YOUR money? Can you honestly say that you have reached a point in your life where you believe that you are mature enough to parent a child? Will you be the one instilling all the right wisdom into this child as he/she grows older? Or will you be handing the kid off to your parents, an aunt, an uncle, grandparents, great grandparents? Do you think that you will make an ideal role model for that child to look up to?

I had to ask myself all of those questions when I found myself pregnant not once but twice at the age of 21. My answer to all of them was “no.” I was lucky enough to have a boyfriend [now Husband] that stood strongly by me as I made these two important decisions. Contrary to what others may thing, we were using two forms of birth control. After my first abortion, I was given antibiotics to keep infection away while I healed. We abstained from having sex until my doctor gave us the go ahead. However the antibiotics weakened my birth control pills [doctor never warned me] and not even six months later I find myself pregnant once again. I was beside myself beyond belief over how this was even possible and the fact that I had to undergo the whole ordeal yet again. As you already know, I did not carry that pregnancy to full term either. I had asked myself the same questions from the first pregnancy and knew in my heart that I was still not ready to become a mother. After the second termination, I got really depressed. It took my boyfriend [now Husband] many months to help me to get over the last ordeal. I’m pretty sure during the last procedure that I started convulsing and I did hear the little vacuum they use to extract the unborn fetus from you. Even today, I am not ready to have a child due to health reasons. Maybe one day…

[end article]

Lessons learned: back then, i was a very fertile lady. Today: I haven’t been able to get knocked up for the past 4 years that my Husband and I have been trying. I wonder if perhaps having those 2 abortions… I fucked my body up. Or perhaps my thyroid is so screwed up that I cannot conceive yet. Or my Husband might be now sterile due to his previous job. Or maybe God just doesn’t want us to be parents. Who fucking knows? But yeah… its depressing that I can’t have at least 1 damn kid. I’m not even sure that I want 1 now. I mean Husband is in Army. He is going to be deployed a lot. Do I really want to be a married yet single parent? Also… I am enjoying the freedom I have now to go meet up with friends whenever. Am I ready to give all that up?I just don’t know…

Husband’s reply: If it happens, it does. If it doesn’t, it’s not the end of the world.

Ehhh… I am trying really hard to live by his view of it and I suppose I should.

Anyways…

HAPPY MOTHERFUCKING NEW YEARS, YA FUCKS :D

Belated Merry Ho Ho Ho to Y’all !!!

Author: Angela  //  Category: Penned By a Military Wife

I spent my Christmas Day sleeping in until 11am due to a nasty headache. I was attempting to drink like my Husband or at least drink the same shit as him. The popular drink for the Soldiers over in S Korea is Soju. It’s a cheap rice wine that you mix with soft drinks or juices. Just a glass of that shit will give me the warm fuzzies.

So yeah… sleeping in until about 11am. Watched some stuff on Hulu after that I think.. can’t exactly remember and I promise y’all that I was sober. I passed out around 4pmish to take a nap. Oh boy… that nap lasted until 7pmish with me waking up with the desire to order a pizza. Well after I cleared the fogginess of sleep, I realized… dude its freaking Christmas Day, they ain’t going to be open. So… I was like hmmm… I had been wanting to perhaps go see a movie. A dear close friend of mine posted up a status on Facebook that he was thinking about going to see a movie. I asked him what one. He said Where the Wild Things Are. Well I knew it had been out far too long to be playing at the big theatres.. so I did a little searching around and found out it would be playing at a small one. I was by then craving sushi, but wasn’t sure if they were open. I called them up and yup they were open. So I got dressed and made my way for a nice selection of very yummy sushi and made it just in time for my movie. & major score.. movie was only $2. I loved Where the Wild Things Are and thanked my friend for suggesting it. I would have loved watching it with him but … he lives in Charlotte NC which is a 4 hr drive :(

I then had a mad craving for ice cream. Realized that QT would be open so I mosied on to there and got me… 3 diff kinds of ice cream bars, bag of beef jerky, bag of Funyuns and some root beer. When I got home, I ate 2 of the ice creams and mixed me up another glass of Soju. Decided it was time for a little bit of fun with my friends in our Beloved SG Chat. Drinking game ensued… I got drunk… made a few more friends… oh man I freaking LOVE SG.

Woke up to another nasty hangover this morning after sleeping in until 11am. Hey, I could get used to this… I mean the sleeping in part… NOT the hangovers. Been sitting around the house doing much of nothing waiting until 7:30pm to hit so that I can meet up with friends at the Righteous Room then accompany them to the AWESOME of all AWESOMES… Silver Scream Spook Show.

Ya know… I thought this Holiday would be hard since Husband is not around and ALL the way over in S Korea… but I handled it quite nicely. No crying, no anger, no depression. I think I’m going to be okay =)

Bonzai, a week ago…
Not Amused... Mama!!!

& I do like my toys… sadly the Dragon has been maimed, the rawhide is pretty much gone, but he is loving his new collar and his blanket… actually passed out under it right now.
yay

Merry Christmas!!!
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Vacation!!!

Author: Angela  //  Category: So Sayeth Angela

I am so ready for this work week to be over. When 5pm rolls around on Christmas Eve, I am OFF from work until Jan 5th 2010. I was due a week’s paid vaca so I elected to take it the week right after Christmas.

I plan to sleep in every damn day and take PLENTY of nice long naps. In between all of that I has no clue what I’ll be doing. A few things do come to mind tho… visiting friends at their job a roos, hanging out with friends who have a diff work sched than I, finding new things to re-organize at my place, text peoples like crazy, watch more Naruto, dance around like crazy, and who knows what else… Holy shit balls, I hope I don’t get too bored and start doing odd random shit that makes my neighbors want to have me committed. Hehe, I promise you I’m not THAT crazy.

Ummm, I do have a few Dr appts during that week: a followup with my Endocrinologist to check the current levels of my thyroid and another followup with my Psychiatrist to see if we need to up the dosage on my lamotrigine that I is on.

Oh, I will also be chatting with the Husband on Skype and AIM too when he 1st wakes up, during his lunch break, and when he is done with his Military duties for the day. One thing that sucks is that he’s attending his 1st Military Ball and I can’t be there to go with him :( Well… there will be plenty of those once he gets back and we’re stationed at our 1st Post together.

I have had the WORST case of insomnia the past few nights which sucks major horse cock a roo… the 1st night I guess was cuz certain peoples were not returning my texts so I’m all wondering wtf is going on like is the person hurt, dead, upset with me, etc? But all is good and was explained and I feel better. But like last night and tonight… I just am freaking WIDE AWAKE and its pissing me off. These last 2 days of work are HELLA busy and I need my rest but here it is 1 FUCKING AM IN THE MORNING and I’m still WIDE AWAKE… its like OMFG WTF and la la la…. Blah… I’m going to go try to pass out now… :/

Just Don’t…

Author: Angela  //  Category: So Sayeth Angela

give a shit anymore. Seriously, I have so many friends in another online community as well as OFFLINE that I SERIOUSLY don’t give a fucking flying fuck what any of my old “bullies” think anymore. I have collected such a support of friends who know and accept me COMPLETELY for who I am that nothing else matters. I’m over the trash talking amongst blogs etc from the early days of the ever so popular blogging.

You wanna know some of my darkest secrets? I am a fucking member of Suicide Girls which us members affectionately call SG. No, I’m not a model nor a hopeful, but maybe one day… who knows. For all those who say negative things about the site, you don’t know shit until you have actually spent some time on it and actually gave it a chance.

I was just recently diagnosed with Bipolar Type 2 and Manic. Yes, I am now taking a pill that keeps my emotions in check. Before that damn pill finally got into my bloodstream and begun mellowing me out, I was a freaking wreck. I went into blind fits of rage and it NEARLY cost me to get fired. But now… I’m happy again, I can laugh about the most randomest things and know that things are getting better.

My marriage is on shaky grounds, but we’re taking the steps to fix it. But who HASNT’ had hard times in their marriage.. not saying EVERYONE will, but it DOES happen.

Yes, I cut my hair super short… but I kinda like it. I never had the courage to do it in fear of being ridiculed, but HEY… I think I pull it off quite well.

So yeah… suck it you damn “bullies” from the past.

Would You Look @ That…

Author: Angela  //  Category: So Sayeth Angela

I have changed SO much like appearance wise over the past few months. I guess I’m trying out new things and attempt to rock it out…

Back in 2007…
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Me… NOW
30

Husband’s not really loving the new hair, but all my friends think its incredibly HOT. I do feel I look more sassier or whatever… lol. Also… I think I’m going to enjoy my 30s and can look pretty damn good doing it ;)

So I Be 3-0 Nows…

Author: Angela  //  Category: Epic

Damn, this age snuck on me too freaking fast. All this fretting and well literally FREAKING out over the idea of me turning 30 was all for nothing. I had an AWESOME day. I got to the office to find a Happy Birthday banner and a HUGE freaking Birthday balloon on my desk. My boss surprised me the day before with some really nice red coffee mugs with snowflakes on them. The other Dentist who shares the office with us and his girls got me some really yummy gourmet cupcakes, sang Happy Birthday to me, and got me a $30 gift card for Long Horn. Then my boss took me out to lunch and gave me the rest of the day off WITH pay. After our lunch, I dropped by Urban Outfitters to pick up a gift for a Dirty Santa thingy I’m doing with friends and then I went to the mall to buy a few things for my bday shindiggy dig with my friends I am having this upcoming Saturday at a nearby bar. After shopping, I went to Provino’s for some free yummy garlic rolls, salad, pasta, and some ice cream topped with a candle ALL free cuz it was my birthday. I ended the night by going to Carribou Coffee to get a free drink. Oh the BEST of the BESTEST parts… I got a call from my Husband which I didn’t expect cuz he’s out in the middle of nowheres S. Korea for training for about 3 weeks. That totally made my day.

So yeah… turning 30 wasn’t as bad as I feared. I had a freaking ball. & to think I don’t even look CLOSE to my age at all… muahaha!!! Last night, some random guy thought I was 19.

Sometime before next weekend, I got a lot of shit to do still. Stuff to buy for the Holiday party I is hosting at my place, rearrange stuff at my place to get it all Party Set, take Bonzai to get vaccinated for Kennel Cough… he’s getting boarded the night of my Holiday party, and prob some other random bullshit but I can’t remember.

Of this month, the only weekend I’m NOT busy is Christmas weekend. Starting Saturday December 25 until Monday January 4, I have ALL of that off WITH pay. I’m not too happy about the idea of waking up Christmas morning with just me and the Pup. I guess I’ll just GET OVER IT then call up friends later on the day to see if they want to catch a movie or something. Hell, I’m even taking off to Gatlinburg, TN with some friends over New Years weekend. Still trying to decide if I want to watch the Peach drop in person this year or not. I’ve never done it and unless Husband and/or I come back to the Atlanta area just for the Holidays, it will be my last time to do it. Yup, I knows I’ll prob be freezing my ass off, but that’s what spiked eggnog is for. I’m trying to stay busy cuz well its lonely w/o the Husband which is worse around the Holidays. So far… I been doing pretty well.